Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Rebuttal

We don't hate outsiders. We're just normal human beings. And normal human beings won't put up banners welcoming you into their cliques when they first meet you. Typical social behavior dictates that you be scrutinized before you get accepted into a group, much less if you want to date someone from that group. I'm sorry but I'm not gonna be your friend overnight.

Yes we were polite. We tried to be nice to you. We love our friends, that's why, for once, we tried being nice and wanted to give you a chance. And you have no idea how much it took us to keep trying. But, hey, no good deed goes unpunished, right? Well, I guess it would have saved us all the trouble if we just bitched about you right from the start and never gave you a chance, eh?

Well, I said we tried being nice. But we're not perfect. I'm sorry if at some point, we forgot our manners and talked about something you don't know about right in front of you. That's the problem when you share a decade of your life with other people. You tend to talk about it and laugh about it without even realizing it. I'm sorry if it made you feel awkward. But honey, we won't watch our every step just for you.

There will never be any girl that deserves our guy friends. We will always find flaws in them. Yes, we are way worse than their mothers. We will always be bitchy with their girlfriends. But that doesn't mean that we would stand in the way of their happiness. If they think they'd be happy with you, then go right ahead. Be happy with each other. It doesn't mean we have to like the idea but we understand.

We don't like you but we were nice to you. We don't like you but we never said anything bad about you. We don't like you but we never did anything to get rid of you. That's not being a fake. That's called civility. Too bad you don't know that. If only you have tried to act with the same manner. If only you have tried to suck it up and play nice for a little while. We could have gotten along just fine. But no, you just had to be true to yourself. So you hate our guts. But I hate to state the obvious, we don't like you any better.

Well, I guess we're done here. We have ranted, just the same you've had. We've said our pieces. You've taken enough of our time. One day's all we've got to lose. Don't worry, we're not losing any sleep over you. And, by the way, thank you very much for giving us a more better reason not to like you. Ta ta. :)

Sunday, March 6, 2011

I crush him. I crush him a lot. ^_^

After ten years and some, I still have this huge crush on him. No, no. He's not the guy I've been ranting about from the previous blogs. He's the other guy. The other guy I've been nuts about but never been in love with.

I feel compelled to write about him. He's a big part of my crazy life, without his knowledge, of course, and I so badly want to tell the story about it. But not now.

It would take plenty of time to tell his part in my twisted life. Time that I don't have right now. But soon, I will.

It's just that, right now, at 2:46 am, I find myself smiling at the thought of him. I find it very comforting to find something consistent amidst all the changes I'm afraid I'm facing right now. Just the thought of him makes me smile. One look at his photo makes me feel gooey inside. In a very crazy way, he keeps me sane. And the best part is, he doesn't have the tiniest idea.

I gotta stop now. If I don't stop, I'll be telling the long tale of how he came to be my knight in shining armor. When I find the time, I'd indulge myself with remembering all those laughable, if not pathetic, moments I had with him, and share it with the world wide web.

For the meantime, I need to sleep. I wish I'd dream of him. :)